I was already feeling down. Really really down. I felt so bored at home and my mum kept on continuously nagging at me. I really wanted to go out so I made plans with my godbrother yaya. I was really looking forward to it.

YAYA
Communication screwed up between me and my godbrother halfway throughout our outing and things just got worse by the minute. I was already super pissed off and realizing that it was my fault made me even guilty and sucky. It was like a cherry on top of a banana split. I swear it was. On top of that, I made Abang Ashton pissed off too.

SECRETS OUT
On Monday my mum woke me up at nine am in the morning while I was still fully asleep just to bombard me with some random personal questions. I was so pissed off at her for checking my stuffs without my permission. Now she knows my secret and when I tried to clarify things with her she wouldnt want to believe me. I was so embarassed to text message my godbrother for help despite being such a bitch the day before.

SILENCE
My mum and I did not spoke until today, Tuesday. The whole of monday was a bore. I stayed at home, hooking up with my computer and my hot ass stuck on the computer chair. The bestest monday blues I have ever experienced.

YOUTH MEETING
I managed to go out on Tuesday. I went for this youth meeting at onepeople.sg, a racial harmony organization. Firstly I was broke so I skipped lunch and tea time and had to rely on whatever tidbits that the organization prepared. Thank god for that.

BLEEDING ANKLE
When I was seating I accidentally hurt myself and ended up having a really bad bleeded ankle. I lost quite an amount of blood. I should have been more careful.

PHONE SPOIL
Thanks to those junior youth members for throwing all sorts of stuff toys at me. It was a wild pillow fight which spoiled my handphone. Now my sony ericsson phone is totally flat and dead. You guys really did a fantastic job at killing my phone with your awesome strength. Please aim properly. Aim me, not the phone. It is way too late now. And ironically with the mini tension going on with my mum, I still got the cheek to ask her "can i use your phone".

MESSAGES & PHONE CALLS
I had four messages in my inbox and I could not read any of them. I tried randomly pressing and navigate myself through my contacts and inbox but epically failed to get what I want. Dammit. Now I will never know what is in those messages. My ultimatum plan was whenever I received a message, I will straight away open and hit the call button.

BAD HAIR DAY
After the pillow fight. My hair was totally in a mess and I still need to attend band practice at woodlands. I really hated to see myself in that state. So unglamd and unkempt. Embarrassed to go for band practice.

Amazingly something happened during band practice that made me feel so much better. It sounds like a cheesy story but it is totally true. I called somebody and he asked me out on a date. I was telling to myself "after all the shit that happened to me for the past two days, why would somebody who I met once and did not even talk to, ask me out on a date on christmas day itself?" I felt so warmed. Now this is what I called a cherry on top of a banana split.

That conversation made me so aware of myself. It somehow gave me a turning point. A small mini roundabout. I told myself "today is fifteen tuesday, its my sister's birthday and why the hell am i out going for meetings and band practices [i dont dislike both okay], i need to go home to celebrate, to change my phone, to plan and be ready, and organized" and therefore I told my members "i got to go. i wanna go home."

I reached home and I felt so elated. I was just damn happy to be at home. The whole journey from woodlands to my doorstep I kept telling myself "i wanna go home. i should be at home". And true enough I did reach home. Thank god. Thank you so much for texting me. I believe that my life will change for the better in days to come. When life gives you shit, give it back to it! =)

Love always,
Danny Izann

I am sorry Abang Bal for the last minute plans.
Really really heartbreak sorry =( hehehe. Really.

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